[ Ah, so that's why Emerald was so surprised when Akashi asked if Mercury hurt her. If they don't keep anything from each other, then they're probably very tight. ]
I see.
I'm glad we're friends.
[ That's what he was driving at when he brought up that she likes him. He can say it now, too. ]
[ She turns back around the rest of the way and rests her forehead against the back of his spine. ]
He wasn't too bad was he? He just came fresh off of Cinder-- of the battle Cinder died in, our side losing... If he was there, I was there too so he's probably exhausted hauling me off if we needed to escape and in a bad mood.
[ She knows if they get cornered it's her job to get them out of there. She doesn't have any of the details of what happened, or even who else was with them, but Cinder was the only one he told her died. But regardless, she's really hoping Akashi hasn't decided to write him off. She doesn't expect them to get along but it'd be nice if they weren't actively trying to pick a fight with each other, so she wants to know what to expect. ]
I just want you to know you're not alone, that's all.
[ She doesn't just have Mercury! ]
He's nothing I can't handle. [ At that time, anyway. He's not sure how it will be once Mercury's. . . feeling better and more oriented with the place. ]
[ Not to have an expectation of being alone. She knows it took her a while to contact him, but the fact that she felt she could contact someone for help is a first. ]
Uh huh. I'm the only person he'll let handle him, so if something comes up just let me know. No pissing contests.
[ Akashi looks back at Emerald for a split second before facing front. She really needs to speak more eloquently. He doesn't want to get too distracted when they could topple off the horse if he does. ]
I'm not barbaric enough to do that.
[ Literally and metaphorically. Either Mercury is an ally or an enemy, though. Right now, he's still in the middle. ]
[ When he looks back, he'll have seen her quirk an eyebrow at him. ]
Sure, Mr. "I am Absolute, know your place."
[ He said it in front of her after playing the two jerks at the basketball court, she's not going to not tease him about it. She's pretty sure that's the definition of a pissing contest to compete against someone for the sole purpose of proving dominance. ]
Yeaaaaah... I don't think his promise to me not hurt you unless you hurt me first is going to last through you making him kneel, so I'd hold off on that and just call me over if he's being a pain.
[ That's not exactly what he said, but the implication that Emerald would stop liking Akashi for any reason would require Akashi to hurt her a lot to get her to tell Mercury it was okay. If A is B and B is C, then A must be C. ]
[ Because Mercury doesn't have to be standing up to shoot him in the face. X( ]
I want you to be aware of him and recognize that the best solution isn't you handling him on your own. Besides, his negative emotional reactions suck just as much as yours do- you pull that at the same time and you'll end up killing whoever's around you before each other.
[ ... that's it. That's all the acknowledgement Akashi gives.
He's fine with trusting Emerald and relying on her on some things. He's learned his lesson when they went to Shaarnath and had to deal with the rebels, but he's not going to play nice because someone told him to when the other person isn't returning the favour. ]
If he doesn't hurt me, [ Or annoy him, really... ] then we won't have a problem.
[ She's not unaware that at no point has he agreed to call Emerald if something happens. He's still refusing her help, even in a situation that would in no way put her in danger of crossing any lines.
Though unlike Akashi's solutions to do what he pleases and exert his authority as needed, Emerald makes a mental note to just be careful about upsetting him. If her off-handed comment didn't phase him, she perhaps mistakenly assumes that means he knows he's hurt her and he doesn't care instead of just not realizing it as she'd previously thought. It adds up with his behavior of late, making sure that anyone who crosses him isn't able to. It also adds up with how people who like Emerald treat her when she doesn't behave, so this isn't something she feels the need to address. The fact that he's nearly suffocated her twice being something he's aware of and hasn't felt the need to address in the past or when she's brought it up is something she just accepts and doesn't at all deter her from her response: ]
[ Emerald is going to eventually leave him if she had to choose between him and Mercury, anyway. Akashi is no Cinder, but Mercury is the closest person she has to Cinder. He and Emerald are friends. Mercury and Emerald are... whatever they are - allies, colleagues, co-slaves—all Akashi knows and believes is that her relationship with this person is far more important than what the two of them have. Akashi finds that he hates that - that Emerald is going to leave him behind eventually and he knows what the cause of that will be.
He should listen to her for his own safety, but Akashi is angry and broken. Were he in the proper state of mind, he would have responded differently. He isn't.
Eventually, they reach the house in the woods. There isn't much changes to the exterior compared to the housewarming party. The windows once had cracks in them, but Akashi's since fixed it.
Akashi gets off Yukimaru once they're inside the stable and helps Emerald down before leading the way inside. ]
[ It's a good thing he helps her down because her heel got stuck on the stirrup. If he wasn't helping she probably would've ended up flat on her face. She brushes off the back side of her pants once she's down and gives Yukimaru two pats above his stifle as a thanks for the ride, then follows Akashi. ]
Just the bread is okay, I'm not really hungry.
[ In fact, she's heading for the couch once they're in if he doesn't direct her otherwise. ]
[ Emerald can chill on the couch, no big deal. Akashi would have suggested she stay there, anyway. It's comfortable on the couch!
Meanwhile, he heads to the kitchen to the warm some milk and heat some bread. He's not sure if she wants something with the bread, but he slices some cheese and puts honey in a small bowl to serve.
He's out in less than five minutes, and he sets everything on the coffee table by the couch. ]
[ By the time he's out, Emerald has gathered up every throw pillow she could find and put them against her and one in her lap. She'll give one back to Akashi if he wants it. ]
It sounds sticky.
[ But he said to try it so she's going to try it. She makes a face though. Fancy cheeses aren't really her thing. She likes the honey anyway........ ]
He sits back down, sinking in the couch a little. His eyes aren't on her, but on the table instead. He isn't really sure what else he can do to make her feel better. He's not good at these kinds of things, and the last time somebody told him bad news, something else happened afterwards to comfort that person and he's pretty sure fingering Emerald and making her see stars isn't the best way. :s Not that he is thinking it in the first place. That's just his only experience of comforting somebody who's lost family. ]
[ Yeah that might not be the best approach. Emerald mostly just wants him to stay instead of leaving over and over to try to get her things she doesn't want. She doesn't really let go of his wrist even after he sits down, just holding it but barely touching as if she isn't sure if this is okay, and staying quiet. ]
[ Akashi doesn't mind. He actually looks down at where her hand is. If she wants him to stay, then he will.
He twists his arm a bit and tries to wiggle out of her grip so he can reach for her hand, cupping it with his own. They aren't lovers or anything, so he doesn't entwine their fingers together, but he holds her hand tightly. ]
[ It's fine. That's all she wants. Emerald doesn't really think touching someone's hand means much, but she's found on the rare occasion it isn't an excuse to get close to someone, to establish contact so they don't focus too hard on anything else, so they look at her and not her movements-- she's found that it's comforting. The same way it was with Mayuzumi, though that hadn't been an attempt to seek comfort. It just had been, in a way she hadn't expected it. Right now, she's reaching out. She needs it, rather than finds it incidentally.
After a few moments of silence, not really touching the bread, she does at least try to make an effort. She needs to move on- that's what everyone's telling her, even though she just learned this. So she'll make an effort. She'll push it down, and try to act how everyone else wants her to. She doesn't smile, but she does at least try to take a jab at him. ]
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[ Obviously, as if that explains anything. ]
We don't keep secrets from each other.
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I see.
I'm glad we're friends.
[ That's what he was driving at when he brought up that she likes him. He can say it now, too. ]
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[ She turns back around the rest of the way and rests her forehead against the back of his spine. ]
He wasn't too bad was he? He just came fresh off of Cinder-- of the battle Cinder died in, our side losing... If he was there, I was there too so he's probably exhausted hauling me off if we needed to escape and in a bad mood.
[ She knows if they get cornered it's her job to get them out of there. She doesn't have any of the details of what happened, or even who else was with them, but Cinder was the only one he told her died. But regardless, she's really hoping Akashi hasn't decided to write him off. She doesn't expect them to get along but it'd be nice if they weren't actively trying to pick a fight with each other, so she wants to know what to expect. ]
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I just want you to know you're not alone, that's all.
[ She doesn't just have Mercury! ]
He's nothing I can't handle. [ At that time, anyway. He's not sure how it will be once Mercury's. . . feeling better and more oriented with the place. ]
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[ Not to have an expectation of being alone. She knows it took her a while to contact him, but the fact that she felt she could contact someone for help is a first. ]
Uh huh. I'm the only person he'll let handle him, so if something comes up just let me know. No pissing contests.
[ She doesn't want Akashi to get hurt. ]
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[ Akashi looks back at Emerald for a split second before facing front. She really needs to speak more eloquently. He doesn't want to get too distracted when they could topple off the horse if he does. ]
I'm not barbaric enough to do that.
[ Literally and metaphorically. Either Mercury is an ally or an enemy, though. Right now, he's still in the middle. ]
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Sure, Mr. "I am Absolute, know your place."
[ He said it in front of her after playing the two jerks at the basketball court, she's not going to not tease him about it. She's pretty sure that's the definition of a pissing contest to compete against someone for the sole purpose of proving dominance. ]
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Although sometimes he does like to flaunt it because some people are assholes. :) ]
I won't make Mercury kneel unless I have to.
[ That's not him challenging Mercury to a pissing contest. It's him slapping the guy with authority. ]
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[ That's not exactly what he said, but the implication that Emerald would stop liking Akashi for any reason would require Akashi to hurt her a lot to get her to tell Mercury it was okay. If A is B and B is C, then A must be C. ]
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It almost sounds like you want me to be afraid of him.
[ But for Emerald's sake, he doesn't say anything else, opting to move on. ]
We're near.
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I want you to be aware of him and recognize that the best solution isn't you handling him on your own. Besides, his negative emotional reactions suck just as much as yours do- you pull that at the same time and you'll end up killing whoever's around you before each other.
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[ ... that's it. That's all the acknowledgement Akashi gives.
He's fine with trusting Emerald and relying on her on some things. He's learned his lesson when they went to Shaarnath and had to deal with the rebels, but he's not going to play nice because someone told him to when the other person isn't returning the favour. ]
If he doesn't hurt me, [ Or annoy him, really... ] then we won't have a problem.
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Though unlike Akashi's solutions to do what he pleases and exert his authority as needed, Emerald makes a mental note to just be careful about upsetting him. If her off-handed comment didn't phase him, she perhaps mistakenly assumes that means he knows he's hurt her and he doesn't care instead of just not realizing it as she'd previously thought. It adds up with his behavior of late, making sure that anyone who crosses him isn't able to. It also adds up with how people who like Emerald treat her when she doesn't behave, so this isn't something she feels the need to address. The fact that he's nearly suffocated her twice being something he's aware of and hasn't felt the need to address in the past or when she's brought it up is something she just accepts and doesn't at all deter her from her response: ]
I trust you, then.
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He should listen to her for his own safety, but Akashi is angry and broken. Were he in the proper state of mind, he would have responded differently. He isn't.
Eventually, they reach the house in the woods. There isn't much changes to the exterior compared to the housewarming party. The windows once had cracks in them, but Akashi's since fixed it.
Akashi gets off Yukimaru once they're inside the stable and helps Emerald down before leading the way inside. ]
I'll prepare a small meal.
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Just the bread is okay, I'm not really hungry.
[ In fact, she's heading for the couch once they're in if he doesn't direct her otherwise. ]
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Meanwhile, he heads to the kitchen to the warm some milk and heat some bread. He's not sure if she wants something with the bread, but he slices some cheese and puts honey in a small bowl to serve.
He's out in less than five minutes, and he sets everything on the coffee table by the couch. ]
Honey with cheese is good. Try it.
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It sounds sticky.
[ But he said to try it so she's going to try it. She makes a face though. Fancy cheeses aren't really her thing. She likes the honey anyway........ ]
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[ That's what it seems to him. ]
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[ She's just going to nibble the end of the bread now. ]
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[ He gets up to go get those, then! ]
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Hey. The bread's fine. The honey's good too.
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He sits back down, sinking in the couch a little. His eyes aren't on her, but on the table instead. He isn't really sure what else he can do to make her feel better. He's not good at these kinds of things, and the last time somebody told him bad news, something else happened afterwards to comfort that person and he's pretty sure fingering Emerald and making her see stars isn't the best way. :s Not that he is thinking it in the first place. That's just his only experience of comforting somebody who's lost family. ]
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Just stay.
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He twists his arm a bit and tries to wiggle out of her grip so he can reach for her hand, cupping it with his own. They aren't lovers or anything, so he doesn't entwine their fingers together, but he holds her hand tightly. ]
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After a few moments of silence, not really touching the bread, she does at least try to make an effort. She needs to move on- that's what everyone's telling her, even though she just learned this. So she'll make an effort. She'll push it down, and try to act how everyone else wants her to. She doesn't smile, but she does at least try to take a jab at him. ]
I don't have to play dress up for you now, do I?
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I lost the notif for this :(
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