[ His cheery expression falters and it looks like he's contemplating whether or not he should tell Midorima the details.
He probably should. Not the one about Emerald, since he thinks only Mayuzumi should be privy to the details, but the other thing. ]
I'm... [ He starts off slow, totally unsure if he should even say anything. Akashi is trying, though. He's doing his best. He wants to continue doing his best. ] having difficulty accepting my moonblessing.
[ Midorima stays quiet for a brief moment. He's smart enough to figure out that that means that Akashi likely did not end up Sanguis as he had so boldly declared. ]
What is your moonblessing like?
[ It's best to just ask. He finds it's a unique experience for everyone, and commenting on anything Akashi might be experiencing before knowing what that even is would be folly. He'll simply listen for now. ]
[ Ah.. yeah. He can definitely understand why Akashi would be wary about that. ]
Yes, I've.. experienced Iris's heat with both Tenshouin and Aoba. We should avoid each other during triple moons for your safety. I'll come over if you need me, but you should be aware that Cordis and Iris are a particularly dangerous combination during the triple moon cycle, sometimes blinding to the senses for Iris. Be prepared and aware of who you have over during that time.
[ He isn't going to shame or question why he's Iris. This world has a strange sense of humor. Besides, he's literally only.. been with Iris-blessed. That's a dangerous situation. ]
[ It's a but of a relief that Midorima kind of... takes it in stride. It's why he felt like he could tell Midorima in the first place. Mayuzumi and Emerald teased him too, and that was also kind of annoying. He's glad Midorima isn't giving him the same treatment now. ]
If I need you... [ Akashi does let out a chuckle at that though. As if coming over is that easy, Midorima?? Are you volunteering? ] I'm not sure what Mayuzumi-san and Emerald's thoughts might be regarding that, but I'll discuss it with them.
[ He finishes his soup (did he just take about three sips and it's gone???) before canting his head to the side, looking at Midorima with a rather fond expression. ]
Kise is Sanguis, but surprisingly tame. I don't know if it was because he was with me or if it was because the effects weren't as powerful.
It-- [ If anything, Midorima is the one feeling teased now. He knows that Akashi doesn't really know how to do that though so it's probably not intentional. He bristles, but doesn't start yelling at least. It's Akashi, after all. ] You know that's not what I meant. I'm not against it if need be, but I'll leave that to your partners.
[ It would take some getting used to. Anything with anyone from his normal life would, he thinks. They have established relationships, it would mean breaking and redefining those. Midorima isn't the type of person who can do anything without some level of seriousness, so it would be something done with caution. ]
I took Kise for a walk and gave him a treat and he was fine.
[ HE JUST TREATS KISE LIKE A DOG DURING SANGUIS BUT KISE LIKES IT SO IT'S FINE RIGHT............... ]
[ Huff huff!! He's starting to think Akashi wants to considering how intent he is on ignoring Midorima's objections though.. Definitely dangerous. What is it with the Iris-blessed in his life. ]
I'll keep that in mind if I need to subdue him.
[ He doubts he'll need to. He's a very tame Sanguis. ] It seems like the level of how affected people are by their blessings varies month-to-month as well as person-to-person. What traits do you exhibit?
[ He's just going to clear things up from the table while Akashi gets the set ready. ]
[ with the table cleared off, such a decision doesn't have much distraction from his words for him since Akashi is doing the set up. ]
If you received a nature you were already accustomed to, you would experience no challenge from this world nor gain new perspective. Why do you think I never tire of playing you no matter how many times I lose?
Because you'd like to spend time with me regardless of who wins or loses.
[ He does value the time Midorima sets for him even though they're playing a game and are quiet!! At least, he definitely does even more now compared to before. ]
No. I don't need to play shogi with you to spend time with you.
[ He's trying to seem wise and cool here, u lil shit. ]
Even though I haven't gotten what I want, I always learn and experience new strategies from pushing you further. Your blessing doesn't change who you are, it just draws out new parts of yourself. Use it as a learning experience, even if it isn't the result you wanted.
[ He sounds so indignant about Akashi's derailing of his point.. ]
[ Akashi shrugs his shoulders, "seemingly unaware" of Midorima's indignation. ]
As you say.
As for Iris, I've gotten over it. [ Sort of. He's a little fine now. He did like the attention Mayuzumi gave him, and Emerald wanting to take care of him was also nice. He doesn't show it, but he appreciates it when people show concern for him. It's nice when feelings are reciprocated. ] I intend to learn a lot from it and make the most out of it.
[ He doesn't want to know about your sexcapades Akashi!! He goes to make his first move on the shogi board, but pauses. Something from earlier in the conversation just caught up to him and he's a little confused. So he asks, even if it's way off from when it was first mentioned, but Akashi's intention to make the most out of being Iris brought him back to it. ]
Why do you need Mayuzumi's permission to date outside your girlfriend?
[ Akashi, you told him about Emerald but not Mayu, and he's just now realized something sounds off about that. he hasn't at all realized what it could possibly mean though. He's just dense af. Either way he's gonna make his move on this board so they can start the game. ]
[ Akashi doesn't take very long to make his move. He also doesn't take very long to respond to Midorima either.
What he has may be complicated, but he doesn't consider it to be something he should hide or be ashamed about, even though he should probably be a little more discreet about it. ]
Because Mayuzumi-san and I are also dating. [ He says it as he places his piece down. Red eyes then meet Midorima's. ] The three of us care for each other.
[ Even a couple of months ago, Midorima would've been scandalized by the idea of being with multiple partners. But he's since learned that is very easy for things to get very complicated and that's without bringing someone as intense as Akashi into the mix. Midorima doesn't even have a boyfriend or girlfriend himself, but he has a lot of complicated feelings because despite that it was very clear from the very beginning that nothing he's done was because of a romantic notion, Midorima isn't good at not taking things seriously. He couldn't have done what he had without caring a lot, and as he does the person he still thinks he likes most close to romantically is Weiss, who he's only kissed. There is no way he could judge Akashi for having two romantic partners... Even if he hadn't realized. ]
If there's one thing I've learned here, it's that is very easy for things to become complicated very quickly. You hadn't mentioned him before, I was surprised.
[ And Midorima is super dense about other people so he could've gone on for ages thinking they were just really close because of basketball. He makes his move on the board. It seems like he's a little more focused and practiced since the last time they played. He's been working on improving since they will be able to play again! ]
[ The smile that Akashi gives Midorima is sincere. His pain shows, but despite that, he's happy. Even if it's complicated, he doesn't seem to mind. ]
Whether it's here or in another world, we'll work through all our problems together.
[ Of course it's complicated. At times, Akashi feels like he's the third wheel - the last one who ended up being liked. But he loves both Mayuzumi and Emerald. He'll take whatever life throws at him if it's to be with them. ]
It was a development that happened after we last spoke in person. Though perhaps we should see each other more often. Shall we schedule something weekly?
[ Midorima watches the smile carefully, as if he's trying to observe. But he's not very good with emotions, so he has to just trust what Akashi's saying. He doubts Akashi would lie about how he's feeling anyway. ]
We can take turns hosting visits.
[ So next time, Akashi can come to Midorima's and he'll have like. A prepared meal and stuff. It's nowhere near as often as lunch at school each day, but it's definitely more than they've had since middle school. It'll be good to get to know each other again. ]
That's fine with me. I'll start putting it in my day planner.
[ He will book each day of each week for Midorima!! :) They can do whatever, whether it's just talking or playing basketball or playing shogi. . . honestly, Akashi's open to a lot of things. He's not that picky so long as he can hang out with a friend. ]
Have you got anything to share with me?
[ A story, perhaps, or a problem, or something. He's told Midorima about him and Mayuzumi, but he knows Midorima's not here to listen to unprompted stories. ]
[ It sounds like something simple to say but for Midorima it's big. Bigger than her knows how to make sense of. ]
I don't have a relationship like you do, but there are people I.. make more chroma with than others. There is no opportunity for them to mean anything that I would want them to.
[ Midorima doesn't feel like himself, having to agree that his relationships cannot be serious if he wants to be close to anyone. Akashi can manage a pained smile, Midorima just feels like the only way to be with the people he likes is to change himself. ]
[ It's taken a minute or two, but Akashi finally makes his move. ]
What do you mean?
[ Honestly, he's a little surprised that Midorima's even willing to moonlace lots, but... He's also been here longer. Akashi has to realise that this isn't the Midorima he knows. ]
[ "Lots" might be an overstatement. Enough that he's not in dire straits any more is more like it. ]
There are three people I am willing to moonlace with. One is my roommate, with whom I happened to wake up to one day. [ But it broke the ice and he doesn't dislike Tsumugi so he would be willing to do it again. ] The other two are more complicated. One is dying without a cure. He has no intention of engaging in a serious relationship. I think he pities me that I'm only capable of being serious, even if I understand that and still chose to be with him. The other I like as a person, but we've done nothing more than kiss and I don't feel I could ask anyone here to focus only on me as a means of survival, especially not her.
[ He stays quiet for a moment, staring at the board before making a move. Akashi's move didn't interfere with the one he wanted to make next, so it doesn't take him too long to make it. Hopefully it isn't a mistake. ]
In other words, there is no path to what I want. It's frustrating.
[ Midorima has Akashi's full attention now. So even as he holds a piece and knows how to play it already, he keeps it to himself first. ]
As a means of survival, no. [ He recalls having been scared of telling Emerald that Kise carried him because he was out of Chroma. He didn't want Emerald to be angry or jealous. He'd still hold hands with anyone though, if they need it. ] No, I don't think so, but do you think moonlacing with someone you like would be the same when you moonlace with someone you don't like?
It's very different, Midorima. Not that I've experienced the latter explicitly, but when Murasakibara had wrapped his arms around me, it didn't feel the same as when Emerald did.
The sentimentality and its meaning when Emerald embraces me haven't changed.
This place does make things complicated... and I understand why it's frustrating, but being able to be comfortable with this people should help you.
[ A pause, then he plays his move. ]
Do you openly talk to these people about how you feel?
I'm aware it's different. Your relationship with her was built in that other world, though, in which the both of you were able to build your relationship in a different culture than the one here.
[ He pushes his glasses up, leaning back in the seat as he considers his next move. This one's going to require more thought. ]
It isn't as if I'm just frivolously doing things with people I dislike or have no desire to be around.
[ That probably answers how clearly he's able to talk about his feelings, too. He cares for them. ]
You're in a very unique situation in which your girlfriend appears to be completely comfortable being soulbound or coming to another world with you, Akashi. [ At least he assumes. Surely Akashi wouldn't have started asking about that without her permission. ] And Mayuzumi is already in your world. Schnee and Tenshouin can't abandon their lives and neither can I.
Is that a conversation you've had with those people, Midorima?
[ Hm, no... This isn't a good way to start his point. He backtracks. ]
I think we're going a little out of order here. I wouldn't ask someone to come with me back to Japan if we aren't in a relationship yet. But as you say, you are frustrated that you care about these people, but them moonlacing solely with you isn't something you can ask of them.
You also didn't answer my question.
[ He's not trying to give Midorima hope or anything, but he does want to push Midorima to talk to these people. Tenshouin, he doesn't know very well. They've only met once; he thinks Eichi is a very nice person. Schnee, if it's the right Schnee that he's thinking of... ]
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He probably should. Not the one about Emerald, since he thinks only Mayuzumi should be privy to the details, but the other thing. ]
I'm... [ He starts off slow, totally unsure if he should even say anything. Akashi is trying, though. He's doing his best. He wants to continue doing his best. ] having difficulty accepting my moonblessing.
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What is your moonblessing like?
[ It's best to just ask. He finds it's a unique experience for everyone, and commenting on anything Akashi might be experiencing before knowing what that even is would be folly. He'll simply listen for now. ]
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[ Akashi at least begins with that. Midorima's been here longer; he knows what traits go with the Iris moonblessing. ]
It's... [ He closes his eyes and sighs. This isn't easy to talk about, even when there's tofu soup in front of him. ] constantly hot.
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Yes, I've.. experienced Iris's heat with both Tenshouin and Aoba. We should avoid each other during triple moons for your safety. I'll come over if you need me, but you should be aware that Cordis and Iris are a particularly dangerous combination during the triple moon cycle, sometimes blinding to the senses for Iris. Be prepared and aware of who you have over during that time.
[ He isn't going to shame or question why he's Iris. This world has a strange sense of humor. Besides, he's literally only.. been with Iris-blessed. That's a dangerous situation. ]
I'm sorry you didn't get the blessing you wanted.
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If I need you... [ Akashi does let out a chuckle at that though. As if coming over is that easy, Midorima?? Are you volunteering? ] I'm not sure what Mayuzumi-san and Emerald's thoughts might be regarding that, but I'll discuss it with them.
[ He finishes his soup (did he just take about three sips and it's gone???) before canting his head to the side, looking at Midorima with a rather fond expression. ]
Kise is Sanguis, but surprisingly tame. I don't know if it was because he was with me or if it was because the effects weren't as powerful.
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[ It would take some getting used to. Anything with anyone from his normal life would, he thinks. They have established relationships, it would mean breaking and redefining those. Midorima isn't the type of person who can do anything without some level of seriousness, so it would be something done with caution. ]
I took Kise for a walk and gave him a treat and he was fine.
[ HE JUST TREATS KISE LIKE A DOG DURING SANGUIS BUT KISE LIKES IT SO IT'S FINE RIGHT............... ]
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[ It's intentional. :) Do you wanna fuck your former captain, Midorima? ]
He likes it when you scratch his ears.
[ He gets up from his chair so he can put his bowl in the sink. ]
I'll get my shogi set. Make yourself at home.
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[ Huff huff!! He's starting to think Akashi wants to considering how intent he is on ignoring Midorima's objections though.. Definitely dangerous. What is it with the Iris-blessed in his life. ]
I'll keep that in mind if I need to subdue him.
[ He doubts he'll need to. He's a very tame Sanguis. ] It seems like the level of how affected people are by their blessings varies month-to-month as well as person-to-person. What traits do you exhibit?
[ He's just going to clear things up from the table while Akashi gets the set ready. ]
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It doesn't take long for Akashi to get the shogi set. He seems pretty excited as he sets up, too. ]
I have cunnicular traits. The ears fall on my face sometimes.
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[ with the table cleared off, such a decision doesn't have much distraction from his words for him since Akashi is doing the set up. ]
If you received a nature you were already accustomed to, you would experience no challenge from this world nor gain new perspective. Why do you think I never tire of playing you no matter how many times I lose?
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[ He does value the time Midorima sets for him even though they're playing a game and are quiet!! At least, he definitely does even more now compared to before. ]
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[ He's trying to seem wise and cool here, u lil shit. ]
Even though I haven't gotten what I want, I always learn and experience new strategies from pushing you further. Your blessing doesn't change who you are, it just draws out new parts of yourself. Use it as a learning experience, even if it isn't the result you wanted.
[ He sounds so indignant about Akashi's derailing of his point.. ]
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As you say.
As for Iris, I've gotten over it. [ Sort of. He's a little fine now. He did like the attention Mayuzumi gave him, and Emerald wanting to take care of him was also nice. He doesn't show it, but he appreciates it when people show concern for him. It's nice when feelings are reciprocated. ] I intend to learn a lot from it and make the most out of it.
[ You heard him. ]
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[ He doesn't want to know about your sexcapades Akashi!! He goes to make his first move on the shogi board, but pauses. Something from earlier in the conversation just caught up to him and he's a little confused. So he asks, even if it's way off from when it was first mentioned, but Akashi's intention to make the most out of being Iris brought him back to it. ]
Why do you need Mayuzumi's permission to date outside your girlfriend?
[ Akashi, you told him about Emerald but not Mayu, and he's just now realized something sounds off about that. he hasn't at all realized what it could possibly mean though. He's just dense af. Either way he's gonna make his move on this board so they can start the game. ]
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What he has may be complicated, but he doesn't consider it to be something he should hide or be ashamed about, even though he should probably be a little more discreet about it. ]
Because Mayuzumi-san and I are also dating. [ He says it as he places his piece down. Red eyes then meet Midorima's. ] The three of us care for each other.
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If there's one thing I've learned here, it's that is very easy for things to become complicated very quickly. You hadn't mentioned him before, I was surprised.
[ And Midorima is super dense about other people so he could've gone on for ages thinking they were just really close because of basketball. He makes his move on the board. It seems like he's a little more focused and practiced since the last time they played. He's been working on improving since they will be able to play again! ]
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Whether it's here or in another world, we'll work through all our problems together.
[ Of course it's complicated. At times, Akashi feels like he's the third wheel - the last one who ended up being liked. But he loves both Mayuzumi and Emerald. He'll take whatever life throws at him if it's to be with them. ]
It was a development that happened after we last spoke in person. Though perhaps we should see each other more often. Shall we schedule something weekly?
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We can take turns hosting visits.
[ So next time, Akashi can come to Midorima's and he'll have like. A prepared meal and stuff. It's nowhere near as often as lunch at school each day, but it's definitely more than they've had since middle school. It'll be good to get to know each other again. ]
This day and time is fine for me.
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[ He will book each day of each week for Midorima!! :) They can do whatever, whether it's just talking or playing basketball or playing shogi. . . honestly, Akashi's open to a lot of things. He's not that picky so long as he can hang out with a friend. ]
Have you got anything to share with me?
[ A story, perhaps, or a problem, or something. He's told Midorima about him and Mayuzumi, but he knows Midorima's not here to listen to unprompted stories. ]
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[ It sounds like something simple to say but for Midorima it's big. Bigger than her knows how to make sense of. ]
I don't have a relationship like you do, but there are people I.. make more chroma with than others. There is no opportunity for them to mean anything that I would want them to.
[ Midorima doesn't feel like himself, having to agree that his relationships cannot be serious if he wants to be close to anyone. Akashi can manage a pained smile, Midorima just feels like the only way to be with the people he likes is to change himself. ]
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What do you mean?
[ Honestly, he's a little surprised that Midorima's even willing to moonlace lots, but... He's also been here longer. Akashi has to realise that this isn't the Midorima he knows. ]
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There are three people I am willing to moonlace with. One is my roommate, with whom I happened to wake up to one day. [ But it broke the ice and he doesn't dislike Tsumugi so he would be willing to do it again. ] The other two are more complicated. One is dying without a cure. He has no intention of engaging in a serious relationship. I think he pities me that I'm only capable of being serious, even if I understand that and still chose to be with him. The other I like as a person, but we've done nothing more than kiss and I don't feel I could ask anyone here to focus only on me as a means of survival, especially not her.
[ He stays quiet for a moment, staring at the board before making a move. Akashi's move didn't interfere with the one he wanted to make next, so it doesn't take him too long to make it. Hopefully it isn't a mistake. ]
In other words, there is no path to what I want. It's frustrating.
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As a means of survival, no. [ He recalls having been scared of telling Emerald that Kise carried him because he was out of Chroma. He didn't want Emerald to be angry or jealous. He'd still hold hands with anyone though, if they need it. ] No, I don't think so, but do you think moonlacing with someone you like would be the same when you moonlace with someone you don't like?
It's very different, Midorima. Not that I've experienced the latter explicitly, but when Murasakibara had wrapped his arms around me, it didn't feel the same as when Emerald did.
The sentimentality and its meaning when Emerald embraces me haven't changed.
This place does make things complicated... and I understand why it's frustrating, but being able to be comfortable with this people should help you.
[ A pause, then he plays his move. ]
Do you openly talk to these people about how you feel?
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[ He pushes his glasses up, leaning back in the seat as he considers his next move. This one's going to require more thought. ]
It isn't as if I'm just frivolously doing things with people I dislike or have no desire to be around.
[ That probably answers how clearly he's able to talk about his feelings, too. He cares for them. ]
You're in a very unique situation in which your girlfriend appears to be completely comfortable being soulbound or coming to another world with you, Akashi. [ At least he assumes. Surely Akashi wouldn't have started asking about that without her permission. ] And Mayuzumi is already in your world. Schnee and Tenshouin can't abandon their lives and neither can I.
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[ Hm, no... This isn't a good way to start his point. He backtracks. ]
I think we're going a little out of order here. I wouldn't ask someone to come with me back to Japan if we aren't in a relationship yet. But as you say, you are frustrated that you care about these people, but them moonlacing solely with you isn't something you can ask of them.
You also didn't answer my question.
[ He's not trying to give Midorima hope or anything, but he does want to push Midorima to talk to these people. Tenshouin, he doesn't know very well. They've only met once; he thinks Eichi is a very nice person. Schnee, if it's the right Schnee that he's thinking of... ]
This Schnee you mentioned - is she Weiss Schnee?
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